announcement ! something worth saying

I usually wouldn't touch on sensitive topics but i really thought that this was worth mentioning.

Last Sunday
a girlfriend of an acquaintance of mine was held at knifepoint and was nearly abducted and raped.

On April 27
a 12year old boy was kidnapped while on his way to school and was held for ransom.

On March 6
a 5year old lil girl went missing after she went out to buy instant noodles near her home.

So... what makes me sad is seeing the numerous coverage on the protesters in front of Ambiga's house. The ongoing debate on Bersih. The politicians pointing fingers.

I wish you could see that your people need you.

You break down the walls of our heritage landmarks, erase and rewrite the struggles and achievements of our history and ignore the pleas of your people - only teaching the young that its okay to swipe clean the mistakes. That it's okay to forget where you come from. When in fact, you should've been teaching them to look out for one another, whatever their race, background, and status. Young or old, big or small.

And for everyone else, it is the responsibility of all, not just the authorities. We too have to stop pointing fingers. We get distracted, sidetracked and sometimes... we just forget what it is we fight for. And along the way, somehow, we've allowed these predators to walk among us. Teach any kid you know to walk in groups, find out ways to protect yourself, get a pepper spray, walk your female colleagues to their car.

Our role is just as important as the police.

I'm not saying this from a political, religious or racial standpoint. I'm saying this because i fear for my life. I fear for the life of my lil 8 year old niece who wants so badly to walk to school like the other kids. And i fear for the life of my sister who has to take a bus and walk to work.
 
So, let's look out for one another. Don't walk alone. Don't make them walk alone. Don't lose sight.

To be honest, i was never really close to my mom as a lil girl. i wasn't fond of the dresses she forced me to wear, never listened to her when she told me to sit still, always ran away and hid when she got into her feisty moods.

Nevertheless, and she might not have known this, i always watched her from afar. Sitting at the kitchen table bathed in sunlight while painting dainty lil birds on porcelain. Singing on stage after constantly being pulled up by her friends. Sitting around the dining table with  her close friends, playing gin rummy till the wee hours of the night. Seeing her get ready for a fancy dinner. And my favourite, smiling to herself as she cross-stitches.

I watched her from afar cuz i always saw my mom as this glamorous, outgoing, cultured and poised woman. Someone so utterly opposite of who i thought i was. Someone i wished i could be.

No... that isn't me.

She's the pretty one on the far left.

However, as i grew older and hurdles brought us closer together, little by little, i saw her struggles, i saw her weaknesses and finally, i saw her imperfections.

But even then, she was still that someone i wanted to be. For all the different reasons compared to before, even more than how i felt before.

And for all of you who thinks my laugh is loud... you haven't heard my mother's.

I think i've fallen short of that cuz i will never have the amount of confidence she does, striking up conversations with complete strangers; or how friendly and accommodating she is, switching dialects for whomever she'd be talking to.

I hope i can still learn to be as patient as she is, especially since she's had to deal with 5 unbearable and unmanageable kids; or be as supportive as she is, never missing any of my school events or boasting to people about my awesome omelet (believe me, it wasn't that great).

So, i just wanna say thank you for putting up with me. For giving me just the right amount of space and the amount of push i need.

 
Everything i am today, everything i have to offer... i hope it at least puts a smile on your pretty face.

Yey! She liked it...

camera roll ! random things about me

It's been awhile and believe me... i've been stressing out with the fact that i couldn't post. So, i took a breather from all the projects i was working on, long enough to share with you some random things about me.

 

   

Well, back to work, i guess. I'll definitely be posting something up next week... so keep visiting.