daily entry ! put off till later

A curse I laid on myself, when I was young enough, pushed enough,

numb enough to put off the obsession inside me. I heard the whispers

that needed no closed doors, it lived, it grew, and it breathed in me.

So, I listened and made a mental note.

And it was then I grew among love and lies.

I walked in and out without being noticed, I spoke in murmurs and

little by little, slowly, I faded.

I had once dared to dream when they all said it was no use. I had once dared to feel when I knew it was pointless; all hoping that somehow, someone would prove me wrong. But they never knew I was there. So I never told them that I was.